“I’m Fine.”

I’m fine.”

I’m not allowed to use this phrase, because as Luisa angrily pointed out I’ve been saying it for two months now and look where it’s got me! Instead I’ll say “ I’m OK for now.”

The desire for certainty of diagnosis, prognosis, treatments seems to be a grab for control. probably a very common one. But there’s always something waiting in the wings to remind me that I am not in control.

I would say I’ve been maintaining a positive attitude, partly of my own volition, partly of complete exhaustion, but mostly I’ve been moved by and appreciating the the depth of conversations this situation encourages. Even for those who are uncomfortable with with it —-I love it all. 

Plus all the pictures from the past! 1980

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